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Today started off with a boring weather, humid and hot.

Only the BM class was on, a few questions to be solved.

Get to help out in Interact Club for the first time, Gold dust and paint all over me.

Then there is some sudden changes on the weather, rain starts to pour heavily and even the corridor was about to be flooded outside the classroom. As I have only one school shoes I quickly packed up my shoes an kept them in my bag, regardless I’m going to walk bare footed from the classroom right until the guard house. Have I mention before that our school’s drainage sucks ? I’ve not did I, so yeah it sucks till the max even the way to the guard house was flooded like 15 cm from the ground. I’m glad I kept my shoes. And only later did I realised that my left my pencil box in the classroom.

Soon it stops raining, I took out my shoes and wore them again. School suppose to end at 1,50pm, but my mom came at 2.30. How nice I got myself being the mosquitoes' lunch :/

 

*I got jealous over something I saw in school : A dad, in his working clothes, glosy boots, expensive car, parked his car, came down with an umbrella and walk his daughter out from out school. T_T how nice.*

 

The Lunatic Moon

I woke up this morning,
And the only thing that is in my mind was,
Shit it's report card's day.

On the way to school with my dad's car,
I played my current favorite song
"Beautiful World" - Utada Hikaru.
Reached school. Everybody was talking about National Service. More puzzles to solve to use up the free time before our parents can take our report cards after 9.00 am.
Well I brought my homework over.

Mom called me, so it's my time.
After that only these words were highlighted in my brain from the conversation* we had in the car on the way home.

[Fail] [Lied] [Trust] [Disappointed] [Distraction] [Future] [Don't be a dirt in the society] [Good Job?] [College] [If that's the result you're getting don't even mention any names for colleges]

*I'm done for*

Ilhamku

以我沉重的心情，

我写出了我在心里想表达的话…

 

With such a heavy heart,

I wrote this post for you …

While listening to the song title “As Time Flows”,

The moment of those sad memories entered my mind.

Perhaps you were my first love that I’ve yet to notice till now,

Perhaps you’re the one that I need to give one more chance,

Perhaps, you’re the main reason that made what am I today.

There goes a saying,

Season changes, time changes, but a human heart never change,

Could this be the reason why I’m still like this?

I could see through other people’s desires and intentions,

But never yours.

I could guess and tell where and what they are doing,

But it never works when it comes to you.

Is this why you’re somehow special … to me ?

Various types of emotions came gushing into my mind,

Which are the ones that is truly mine?

Emotions which I get recently,

Jealousy and confused, both of these words paired up perfectly.

So Is this poem written to you with my own feelings,

or beyond other people feeling’s ?

How could I have mixed up my own feelings ,

Unless I’m the one whose been covering all the tracks.

 

Whats wrong with me?