A Day Date with My Family <3

What a packed family activities today :)

Activity 1 - Woke up at 9 to fetch my sis to school for her Taekwando classes.

Activity 2 - Went to Bukit Serdang to buy some products ... Waited so long for the staff there to even key in an prepare my product. In the end NOT even 1 product that I choose has the stock =___= I decided to pay and then wait for their call when the stock arrives. This can save my waiting time for the next visit I go to Yinhoo.

Activity 3 - Played some games and designed new house in Sims 2. Felt great XD. It's time to get y sis again. This time we went straight to lunch in Kuchai Entrepreneur's Park. Japanese lunch set haha.

Activity 4 - Aunt called stated that grandparents and herself will comeby to take her dog to the Vet near my house. Reached home and waited for their arrival. Went to the vet with my aunt and the dog. I decided to tag along because I really miss having a cat around me. And apparently the vet doctor rates beautiful cats in his shop.

Activity 5 - All of us get to enjoy mon's homemade tuna pie and barley soup. Grandparents enjoying themself by watching Dong Yi a Korean drama. And then later switched to the grand finale of the recent American Idol. LOL how cool is that @.@ ?

Activity 6 - Aunt and grandparents left, we quickly get ready to catch a movie in Mid Valley. Yay finally learnt how to use M2U from iphone ^^. So our dinner was 3 Snowflakes deserts for the 5 of us. Then have a quick scan in PC Fair. Dad bought a mouse and a cooling pad.

Activity 7 - Battleship was the movie we watched. It's the second time I've watched it haha still pretty nice. I paid for the 5 tickets :) ... And then late supper near Sentosa.

The end of today's event. Good Night !

踮起腳尖愛 - 洪佩瑜

 

= 我可能不會愛你電視原聲帶 =

 

 

 

作曲：蔡健雅
填詞：小寒

舞鞋　穿了洞‭　‬裂了縫‭　‬　預備迎接一個夢
OK‭ ‬繃‭　‬遮住痛　要把蒼白都填充
勇氣惶恐‭　我要用哪一種
面對他　一百零一分笑容

等待‭　‬的時空‭　‬有點重　重得時針走不動
無影蹤‭　‬他始終‭　不曾降臨生命中
我好想懂　誰放我手心裡捧
幸福啊　依然長長的人龍

想踮起腳尖找尋愛
遠遠的存在

我來不及‭　‬說聲嗨
影子就從人海暈開

才踮起腳尖的期待
只怕被虧待

我勾不著還‭　‬微笑忍耐

等你回過頭來
‭
哪天　撲了空‭　‬折了衷　祈禱終於起作用
一陣風‭　‬吹來夢　卻又敗在難溝通
我終於懂　怎麼人們的臉孔
想到愛　寂寞眼眶就轉紅

想踮起腳尖找尋愛
遠遠的存在

我來不及‭　‬說聲嗨
影子就從人海暈開

才踮起腳尖的期待
只怕被虧待

我勾不著還‭　‬微笑忍耐

等你回過頭來‭

你會回過頭來

回過頭來

想踮起腳尖找尋愛
遠遠的存在

我來不及‭　‬說聲嗨
影子就從人海暈開
才踮起腳尖的期待
只怕被虧待

我勾不著還‭　‬微笑忍耐

等你回過頭來

‭

倪安东-让我爱她

 

艺人：倪安东

唱片公司：华研国际

发行时间：2012年02月24日

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lyrics :

会不会　横越的吊桥粉碎
过两天　曾与她亲密依偎　坐的地铁　就脱轨

三秒内　这摩天轮若倾斜
昏迷间　她那颤抖的指尖　会不会愿意　让我牵

亲爱的　如果　你要　挑选我们啊
再等我　一下　我还没说爱她

你闹够了没　做一个人　已经那么累
你千万别趁我有她陪　定我的罪

你看到了没　爱让我　流胆怯的泪
能不能闭一只眼　放过这一对　
可能会　幸福的一对
让我爱她

会不会　有瘟疫传染了肺
或明天　城市在烽火沦陷　来不及爱　已终点

既然说　人都会生离死别
我许愿　期限内要见的面　你别来搅局　请走远

亲爱的　如果　你要　挑选我们啊
再等我　一下　我还没说爱她

你闹够了没　做一个人　已经那么累
你千万别趁我有她陪　定我的罪

你看到了没　爱让我　流胆怯的泪
能不能闭一只眼　放过这一对　
可能会　幸福的一对
让我爱她

我　越想睡　越怕黑　越醒着　越怕鬼
越爱她　越是自卑　疑神疑鬼

恳求你　可怜我　别让我　乐极生悲

你闹够了没　爱一个人　已经那么累
谁会幸运获得你慈悲　永远约会

你看到了没　世界上　你造成的泪
能不能闭一只眼　放过这一对　
可能会　幸福的一对

能不能睁一只眼　看看我下跪　让我爱她

再给我一百年也不够　我爱她

 

 

 

 

Reference :
1) http://www.yyq.cn/yuezhi/1515.html
2)

不具名的悲傷 - 羅志祥

 

Another nice Music Video …

MV中小猪饰演暗恋女主角张钧寗多年的好友，某晚张钧寗在咖啡馆与男友摔杯大吵被小猪撞见，她情绪崩溃恨不得今晚就是世界末日，小猪用力拥抱对她说「若是这世界只剩下1分­钟，我会爱你到最後一秒。」这让她感受到莫名的安全感与希望，就当2人情愫正要开始发展时，一场突来的车祸意外却在天亮时发生，重伤到灵魂出窍的小猪紧紧牵著张钧寗奔跑，­抢著与时间奋战，那一刻，他该带走她？犹如世界末日般2人一起离开世界？还是该放手让她再度拥有生命呢？浓烈的爱会冲昏小猪的理智吗？若是你，你们的世界只剩下最後1分钟­，你会自私地让时间延续，还是放你爱的人存活？

 

 

 

作词：管启源   作曲：林倛玉

我没有比 其他人强悍
这没有什麽好隐瞒
泪水和你一样烫 也会有心慌
只是不代表我要对人讲
工作很忙 没有谁不忙
我在工作之间流浪
剩下的未标示的时光 就像一个空罐
找不到任何事情 可以填满
有一种情绪是不具名的悲伤
跟我爱不到的那人彷彿无关
只有回忆发出的闷响
越听越觉遗憾
我可不可以什麽都不想
这是你留给我不具名的悲伤
我甚至说不出痛在哪个地方
爱不费一颗子弹 灵魂却洞穿
我投降 能不能把记忆关上
工作很忙 没有谁不忙
我在工作之间流浪
剩下的未标示的时光 就像一个空罐
找不到任何事情 可以填满
有一种情绪是不具名的悲伤
跟我爱不到的那人彷彿无关
只有回忆发出的闷响
越听越觉遗憾
我可不可以什麽都不想
这是你留给我不具名的悲伤
我甚至说不出痛在哪个地方
爱不费一颗子弹 灵魂却洞穿
我投降 能不能把记忆关上
越强烈的爱後劲越强
痛一直延长 在往後的每个夜晚
我以为时间是最好的偏方
治好的全都是皮外伤
我的不具名的悲伤
跟我爱不到的那人彷彿无关
只有回忆发出的闷响
越听越觉遗憾
我可不可以什麽都不想
这是你留给我不具名的悲伤
我甚至说不出痛在哪个地方
爱不费一颗子弹 灵魂却洞穿
我投降 能不能把记忆关上 …

Love Is Pain - Jang Hee Young

 

HOLD IT RIGHT THERE ! I’m not being emo or what lol, just find this song quite a catch with the vocal and the beats and all  

 

English Translation of the lyrics

Why now, why are you leaving me
Why are you leaving, why are you leaving me
Why now, why are you leaving me, why?
I got ya - With the illusion of thinking that you were mine
I lived as I clung onto a fake love
You were the first to take everything of me
But a mere person like me couldn't have you from the start
I know - your smile and even your warm eyes
Ain't no - I don't expect those things - tell me what to do
I just need your heart alone - I breathe because of you
I even long for your cold words so much

* Love is pain - I'm cut with the pain you left me
What am I to do if you just leave me? Hold me please
What am I supposed to do with the scars on my heart
Cut by your cold break-up that spread all over?
You know that I can't live without you
** Why, why, why, is my heart
Every day, every day, every day, rainy
Lonely lonely lonely love me
Hold me hold me hold me baby
So sick - look at me, who is hurting
At least try to shed some fake tears
Why are you breaking up as if it's nothing
How meaningless am I to you?
It'll probably be better if I put this baggage down
But I can't let go of your hand and I remain in confusion
Eventually, no more drama - you are not next to me
I just step on your shadows - I can't even touch you
* Repeat
It's your name name nae
I want to forget you
Not being able to see you ever again seems like a lie
It's your name name nae (I try to erase you)
I want to forget you
But this cruel love cannot be erased
* Repeat
** Repeat (x2)
Stay a little bit longer
No one loves you more than me
I can never live without you
Love is pain

Reference :
1) http://www.popgasa.com/2012/04/jang-hee-young-feat-gilme-love-is-pain.html

2) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_QU3k9XyWyE&feature=digest_tue

XD

 

A Wish for My Birthday <3

Dear god,

I once have a friend, that i left him pure and untouched with the corrupted mind of me ... the only friend that i want to protect away from my corrupted mind last time.
Why you take him away from me ... He has got nothing related to any of my matters also. He is like the innocent one ... I didn't tell him the ugly part of me because I wanted to protect the friendship :(

Thank you for the best birthday gift ever ... I don't want any more gifts ... I don't think I can accept it anymore ....

Thanks for giving me a strong heart and mind to go through this year =') I hope you bless all my friend's heart too <3

Yours Sincerely,

相反的我

 

歌手：

張芸京

專輯：

相反的我

歌名：

相反的我

我看著鏡子後面皺著眉的我
很孤單她有話想說
像天空不會永遠都是藍色的
有陰天你才會抬頭

走穿多少的巷弄　笑了哭了
有三四個人愛我

我想要一個亂了數字的時鐘
我想做一個完全相反的我
我在這個世界拼命些什麼

累死我

我有雙不聽任何命令的耳朵
去享受快樂加上自由的我
我要變成一顆透明的石頭
我不會動　也不會痛

像輪胎用了太久　沒氣了　所以
原諒我　想消失幾週
每個人都在選好的軌道奔走
講真的我想要呼救

請看愛情的臉孔　美的醜的
幾千萬人都被愚弄了

我想要一個亂了數字的時鐘
我想做一個完全相反的我
轉載來自
我在這個世界拼命些什麼

累死我

我有雙不聽任何命令的耳朵
去享受快樂加上自由的我
我要變成一顆透明的石頭
我不會動　也不會痛

這個我　那個我　不一樣的我
等什麼　想什麼　怕什麼

我想要一個亂了數字的時鐘
我想做一個完全相反的我
我在這個世界拼命些什麼

累死我

我有雙不聽任何命令的耳朵
去享受快樂加上自由的我
我要變成一顆透明的石頭
我不會動　也不會痛

相反的我

我想要一個亂了數字的時鐘
我想做一個完全相反的我　相反的我

Karma Hit Hard on My Face This Week.

As my post title states it all. All karma's doing :) It slaps
hard on my face and my pride especially this week.

However so I just want to hear true voice from you.

I handle work and personal things well. It's my turn to do presentation. You want good performance, I show you my best.
I did some research and write out my documentation based on research and my own knowledge.
All and all ends around 2am.

I don't know why I felt very tired that night preparing the documentation and power point slides. I know that shock happened just in the afternoon and pass few night I have not been sleeping well and always wake up around 4am due to nightmares.

But I know the tiredness feeling that I felt throughout the preparations is gained through all my poured efforts and critical thinking on what can make the presentation better.

Just to get your answer. It's worth it as it is able to drive all my nerves to produce quality work. I'm satisfied which what I did. I was too excited until I have the energy to work for another 4 hours and then skip lunch haha how silly.

In the end, I'm satisfied with the answer I got from you.

XD

Some people walked in the moonlight,

But me haha stupid, it was just around 4:30 and I'm already sun bathing feeling the sun burst melting my skin and heating up the metal on my glasses till it hurts my face.

I'm alive and I shall take lift from this point of my life.

Thanks for the accident once again that it was only a motorbike. Not a lorry. That hit opened up my mind and realized I have to take up commitments and responsibilities on my personal matters.

I realized, I was not ready for it. Not was I worth to have a great heart to store you inside. I just couldn't.

But reality is cruel, I wouldn't bare to tell you straight. This stress have been pilling up like a debt inside me. It was a terrible month to go through. February it was.

Slowly I lose contact with all my close ones. Because I was terrified and disappointed with my self for I couldn't take up such great responsibilities.

I lose my close friends one after another.

But finally today. I was given a chance to speak every matter that clings on me like a burden.

Once again, I was like a recycle bin in every desktop. Empty recycle bin.

Some friends are asking me to transfer out after foundation.

My parents are suggesting something similar because they doubt what is my performance in college.

Some friends are leaving the college to catch his dream.

Some friends are desperate to come in ...

All depends on my own thinking and decision. I have my own instinct. I believe I can have a future with my current education base, course mate and new friends.

No hope, create hopes.

No dreams, be creative.

No love, find what you love search for it. Don't wait for it. Don't let things force you to choose. Choose because you want to.

Just remember, how many broken hearts you made, Karma counts in one by one on you :)

This year I hit a motorcycle. Maybe next time some day something huge will hit me. I won't know when.

Like what Jeremy says, hit your goals many times a day until you go broke. Only though this you can build up your stats ;) thanks for being such a close friend to me for this 4 years.

 

The Trauma …. The Phobia …

 

I’ve started driving to college last Saturday,
Which I think it was ok.

Later the night, I thought I had the confidence,
But with my mom and sisters in the car,
I yet reversed without looking properly into my blind spot,
Bang a car, their bumper was cracked
Yet they say its ok …

For that night, I’ve gave up the seriousness
of ever driving again,
Which it was temporary,
And I’ve started to remove my nail polish.
It was hard to remove and I relate it to my current situation.
What was stained, will be hard to remove. It takes time.

I slowly remove all the old colour,
And used the black nail polish.
Its not like the usual me, and definitely,
the old me will not use black.
Conclusion, I’m seeing myself slowly accepting and changing as time goes …

And then I said this to myself “Hey, its black but yet its shiny !”
Conclusion – Every dark point in you, it will still shine even just a bit.

Today 21 March 2012,
Its my chance to drive alone now,
It should not be a problem as I think I have overcome my phobia.
However, that’s not it.

This time, 8:20 pm. It was pitch black.
As my friends rushing back home after the meeting,
they quickly drove away once they reached their car.
My mother just have to call me at that point and I was almost left behind,
Alone in the pitched black car park.

It was terrifying, I prayed to stay calmed,
And played some soft music.

Then I realized that my phobia was actually driving alone going back home …

Slowly, calmly, I drove,
Patiently, cautiously, I wait …

That exact same junction where that accident happened.
I waited … And I crossed.

I’ve overcome it alone ….

Reached home, my hands are still shivering …
I’ve taken more rice, and prayed that I’m blessed enough to still be able to have dinner with my parents.

I’m glad that I can reach home.

 

A Letter to Myself

 

 

 

李佳薇—煎熬

 

 

 

Testing !

New (Minor) Update <3

Day 1 Accident. 2/2/2012

Relaxing listening enjoying my playlist in the car makes me so comfortable. I didn't speed. Just moving around 40-80 due to the heavy traffic. Didn't rush or what.

Yay, reaching home ^^ can online and continue plan for Jeremy's birthday dy hehe.

Why is that women taking so slow to cross haih >.< nvm la If I were her I saw the situation also dont dare to cross. Take your time women !

>_< she's really taking her time lol. 15 minutes dy leh ~
Lol that uncle from opposite so daring put out his hands out force him self out lol.

Yay finally Kia stop for the lady and me to cross :) God bless him. The lady went over, so did I XD.

Taking my time to cross didn't really accelerate .....

Very safe very safe ^^ can cross XD There is no car, but the bike so far away he will stop right ? Don't care la :)

Let's go home <3 XD

"BANG&@$@/&;"

Motorbike crush on my left, the motorist flew to my right I didn't break. I drove in stop there. Saw his head in the drain.

" Pause "

" heartbeat "
"Awful silents "

My thoughts :
Omg !!! His head ~
Someone please help !
Help me !
Help that guy !
Please !
A guy appeared, more people appeared. They pulled him out.
I quickly went back to the car called 999 for ambulance.
Then called my mom.

She came , she told me to off my car and lock. I went in an Indian guy shouted at me and pulled me out from the car shouting I should be right there !

I tried to explain to him but I can't say anything.

Hands shaking ...
More and more people around,
3 police car, an ambulance came. Medics came down.
The motorist was conscious. No blood. He moved his fingers and feet all functioning.

He went off with the ambulance.
Insurance guy very irritating he wanted to help he said he can help clear the situation. Talking to my mom I don't understand I don't understand.....

The wife came, my god, how can I explain to his wife.
"I'm the driver ! I'm the driver please forgive me I don't know what happened he appeared suddenly ! "

She went off with her friends to the hospital.

Hands shaking, should I call shun kit ??

No no he is driving and most probably coming back. His driving skills are worst then me later he will speed and more accident might happened. Call Kenny.
All my mind. Call Kenny call Kenny call Kenny.

Finally I tell my mom, ma, let's call Kenny to get us to the police station ok?

But instead when Kenny came over mom went back to get a bottle of water for me. Mom went off.
I don't know what happened. I just stood there staring at the incident. And I cried ...
I couldn't help it ... I cried ...

Kenny fetch both me and mom to police station. Dad came. Kenny went back. Made police report, gave my statement. All ends around 930.

Dinner. Jeremy sent over a message saying he will pray for the motorist until he was out from ICU. I was happy. I was calmed. I had a peace of mind.

Bath.
Skype called.
Sleep.

"The police siren, the noise from the ambulance ... I was half way awake through my sleep."

A Story on September 18.

Today is my ex classmate’s birthday. Dear Yen Ney, thanks for your birth, that my moments in form 3 is not boring, and good to hear your love stories as well. Always always smile, for when there are hardships, don’t hesitate to call me to cry out loud like how you use to do in those days of course, I wouldn’t hope those sad days will come by in the future though  

I went to Kuchai early so that I won’t catch your birthday party late my girl haha. But I suppose I was way to early :/, called you up, you were in the salon. Weng Yee went to somewhere I guess. Min Yang was the second earliest > < Why he come so early anyway he was so nearby in OUG lol. So camwhored in the salon while waiting for Yen Ney’s hairdo

 

“SMILE” 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Look how pretty we have grown up One year made plenty of changes. Even a human’s mindset and thinking. Never underestimate your needs and greediness in life. It will kill you in a second, and you may regret it for life.

 

 

 

Pancakes for My Fellow Coursemates :)

 

Well I haven been online in skype for TWO FREAKING DAYS and I almost can’t bare the quietness seriously I missed the skype message alert sound and on line and offline friend list !

I didn’t go online because of:

1) I was doing my RMDS assignment.

2) I was frying pancakes   

 

Enjoy the pictures !

 

A Letter to its Receiver ~

 

Dear Receiver,

She is an independent girl who outshines herself, and helps to shine others.

She can create happiness herself, and shines out by herself.

Friends who are not close, she will help shine them, and lend her happiness to them as an asset for being happy.

However, close friend where she thinks its time for you to outshine himself. She wants you to be on a level like her position to shine others.

She wants her close friend, to shine out of his own reasons.

She wants her close friend, to find out his own motivation.

She wants her close friend, to able to make himself smile.

She wants her close friend to have his own independent ability.

She selfishly thinks, that its time for her close friend to cut ties from her suppleness of her happiness to him. But to build his own.

She wants him to be in a stage like herself that, without her as the source of motivation, happiness, positivity, shininess, and to smile.

She prefers a companion that has a strong will, to overcome and to control his own motivation, happiness and his strength.

She wishes her close friend to have this ability so that she could lend the shine, motivation to smile.

And so once awhile, she don’t want to be the subject to be relied on. She wants to rely on someone else.

However, the first time …. Failed …

The second time …. Also failed in a sad way

She is still searching for an individual who can shine from himself, stronger then hers.

Definitely, individuals who gives up after failing first attempt will definitely crush her heart and trust to the deepest core, as she truly wishes that you do not give up just because of first try. Or the outcome he gets.

 

Negative can be attracted to positive ;

Then of course, positive and positive will be on the same level.

However POSITIVE will never be ATTRACTED to Negative.

 

   !

If you can’t even make yourself happy, How can you make others happy ?

 

For now, build your own base for motivation, happiness and to smile. Set your priority as the highest for this 3. Then only start to care others. ;)

 

 

 

Love ,

Lots of love <3 ~

 

Memory Fragments ~ Random ~

When I was taking these pictures,
I'm thinking that ...
I should capture what my eyes could see,
And then share these colourful pictures ...
Afraid that one day ... My eyes couldn't see these beautiful shots anymore,
It could really make me cry.

Currently listening to Missing You - FT Island in ITA Lecture.

The music sound wave which blasted the music into my eardrums, it's indescribable...