As my post title states it all. All karma's doing :) It slaps
hard on my face and my pride especially this week.
However so I just want to hear true voice from you.
I handle work and personal things well. It's my turn to do presentation. You want good performance, I show you my best.
I did some research and write out my documentation based on research and my own knowledge.
All and all ends around 2am.
I don't know why I felt very tired that night preparing the documentation and power point slides. I know that shock happened just in the afternoon and pass few night I have not been sleeping well and always wake up around 4am due to nightmares.
But I know the tiredness feeling that I felt throughout the preparations is gained through all my poured efforts and critical thinking on what can make the presentation better.
Just to get your answer. It's worth it as it is able to drive all my nerves to produce quality work. I'm satisfied which what I did. I was too excited until I have the energy to work for another 4 hours and then skip lunch haha how silly.
In the end, I'm satisfied with the answer I got from you.
XD
Some people walked in the moonlight,
But me haha stupid, it was just around 4:30 and I'm already sun bathing feeling the sun burst melting my skin and heating up the metal on my glasses till it hurts my face.
I'm alive and I shall take lift from this point of my life.
Thanks for the accident once again that it was only a motorbike. Not a lorry. That hit opened up my mind and realized I have to take up commitments and responsibilities on my personal matters.
I realized, I was not ready for it. Not was I worth to have a great heart to store you inside. I just couldn't.
But reality is cruel, I wouldn't bare to tell you straight. This stress have been pilling up like a debt inside me. It was a terrible month to go through. February it was.
Slowly I lose contact with all my close ones. Because I was terrified and disappointed with my self for I couldn't take up such great responsibilities.
I lose my close friends one after another.
But finally today. I was given a chance to speak every matter that clings on me like a burden.
Once again, I was like a recycle bin in every desktop. Empty recycle bin.
Some friends are asking me to transfer out after foundation.
My parents are suggesting something similar because they doubt what is my performance in college.
Some friends are leaving the college to catch his dream.
Some friends are desperate to come in ...
All depends on my own thinking and decision. I have my own instinct. I believe I can have a future with my current education base, course mate and new friends.
No hope, create hopes.
No dreams, be creative.
No love, find what you love search for it. Don't wait for it. Don't let things force you to choose. Choose because you want to.
Just remember, how many broken hearts you made, Karma counts in one by one on you :)
This year I hit a motorcycle. Maybe next time some day something huge will hit me. I won't know when.
Like what Jeremy says, hit your goals many times a day until you go broke. Only though this you can build up your stats ;) thanks for being such a close friend to me for this 4 years.
